How does this human mind work? After I lost my child, I have been into deep contemplation about my life and its purpose. There are many kinds of thoughts that are waving in this mind. Sometimes I regret my past that if I would have done this, if I would have done that.. I could have saved my child. But again, the next moment I think, how could have I done that…since that time I did not know, I did my best at that time. Took care of myself, my food, my rest, and many other things.
As per my knowledge, I did everything carefully, then why this happened to me. The next moment I think that nothing is there in this world that belongs to me, I did not bring anything with me at the time of my birth. All relationships are created in this world and when I will die, I will not take anything with me. Even this body will not accompany me. Then why to think so much about this incidence and why to regret about past.
People who meet me and talk to me about this incidence, they all have different opinions about this. Some make me relaxed, while some others make me to think about that tragedy. Three weeks are over and I am taking rest at home. I listen to Poojya Sri Sri Ravishankarji’s talk and Osho’s discourses and getting recharged to continue my life.
Whatever happens, happens for good. The time and experience which I am enjoying now, I never had before in my life. This is the first time that I am totally free from any activities except listening to talks and discourses and based on that thinking about my life, my mind and my life’s purpose. How strange it is. I know that I am in a well and want to experience the life outside this well, still am enjoying being in well. HA HA…this is the biggest surprise of my life. I myself have created this boundary, in fact there is no boundary at all. How to break this boundary, is a big question. It is very difficult, but not impossible. One in crore dares to break this inhibition, and can do so by self practice and sadhana.
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